Today as I gazed upon the grandeur of Heian-kyΕ, I couldn't help but feel a sense of awe and a tinge of resentment. Life here is filled with splendour, from the majestic palaces to the serene gardens. Yet, as a kuge girl, I am often relegated to watching from the shadows, unable to fully participate in the vibrant life around me. It feels unfair and unjust and that I am unable to be a participant but instead confined to the corners observing. Court life is a constant whirl of ceremonies, celebrations and synchronising our rituals. I watched today as noblemen and women engaged in intricate religious dances, their movements graceful and precise, each step steeped in centuries-old tradition. Poetry competitions, which are a favoured pastime with courtiers, capture the fleeting beauty of nature and the depth of human emotions. The art of words is held in high esteem, (even by the Sohei warrior monks) and I am always inspired by the eloquence displayed by the participants. The courtyard echoed with laughter and cheers today as the young nobles showcased their sporting talents. Kemari, the ancient game of football, is a sight to behold! Players, dressed in vibrant robes, kick a deerskin ball: skillful, coordinated and communal. The aim is to keep it aloft for as long as possible. I watched from a distance, wishing I could join in the carefree camaraderie. Would life be like this for a kuge girl forever? The Bugaku dances performed at court are mesmerising. Dancers adorned in See more